Starting the Year off Right!

I thought it could not be done.  I truly believed (in the beginning) I would never reach my goal of 185 pounds.  It had been *such* a long time since I had seen those numbers on the scale, it truly seemed an impossibility.  Well, I am here to tell you…it was not impossible!

I MADE GOAL OVER THE HOLIDAYS!!!!

This morning I weighed in at 183.2 pounds!  This is the least I have weighed since I can even remember…teenage years included!  Since July 10, 2011 I have lost a total of 131.8 pounds.  From my heaviest recorded weight (according to my doctor’s office), though, I have lost a total of 158.8 pounds (since January 2011).  I find this absolutely mind-blowing!  Insanity.

My prediction for this year is *very* optimistic.  I am starting this year the healthiest I have been probably in my whole life.  I am also starting this year the happiest I have been as well.  I have amazing people in my life right now who love and support me, which is an awesome feeling.

Of course, I have goals left to meet (and new goals will continue to come, believe me).  So, the work is not finished…we are just beginning.  This is when things start to heat up, not cool down.  I am working toward my certification still, and my BS in Health & Wellness.  My photo shoot is coming up with Kat (awesome photographer) and Aaron (phenomenal trainer), so I am both looking forward to it and being anxious about it.  Good things, though, good things.

How did your year start off?  What goals are striving for this year?

-Erica

So, I’ve Been Meaning To…

…catch up with all of you.  Apparently I have been meaning to do that for 75 days at this point.  Seventy-five days.  That is just insane.

My life has been pretty busy.  I feel like it is busier than normal even.  My abridged version:

1. My knees (more so my left) are killing me.  I mean serious pain…constant pain…the kind of pain that makes you walk up the stairs like a two-year-old griping the rail for dear life.

2. My weight continues to hold steady…around 190 to 193 pounds.  I saw one glimpse of 189.8 on the scale…then the very next day I was back to 192.  Infuriating.

3. I am training with Aaron steadily these days.  Things did not “end” well with Denise, unfortunately, and I am missing her like crazy.  I will always be grateful to her for getting my through some of the toughest months in my journey and being ridiculously supportive even when I was whining like a baby.

4. I went back to college.  I had graduated in January with an Associate degree.  Currently I am working toward a Bachelor’s in Health Sciences (Health & Wellness).  This is pretty exciting…and also makes me very busy.  Should I actually be able to make myself blog on any kind of regular basis, I will have all kinds of good/fascinating information to share with you all!

5. I am getting stronger.  A lot stronger.  A military push-up (one in which you keep your elbows tucked neatly next to your torso instead of flaring them out at a 45-degree angle) was something that eluded me…and annoyed me.  However, I am happy to say I can do them!  Not a ton of them, but still I can…and in perfect form!  This was a major victory for me…strange, I know.

6. My right elbow cannot behave for any length of time.  I was diagnosed with tendonitis in it a couple months ago.  I iced it, rested it, and took Ibuprofen.  It felt better, so I did upper body with Aaron and then it was mad at me again.  Then, repeat…and again…and again.  Every time I give it a week or two off, it feels great.  However, as soon as I do any pushing or pulling…WHAM-O! It is killing me all over again.  Also frustrating.

7. Friday marked my third Ortho-Visc injection (second set) in both knees.  Friday and Saturday were *rough* (to say the least), but today they seem to be feeling a little better.  Hopefully this means I will have some time to work on them.

8. I have decided to write a book…after *lots* of urging from friends, family, and acquaintances.  Personally, I think the idea of writing a book all about me is egotistical.  Other people; however, seem to think it would be beneficial and inspirational to those who would want to read a book all about me.  So, as part of my submission, I will be doing a photo shoot on Jan 5 & 6th.  Aaron, Dorsey, Chris, and others from Fitworks will be joining me for the shoot.  Honestly, I doubt I could pull it off without them (as I plan to hide behind them as much as possible – tee hee).

9. I still struggle with body image…and loving myself.  That has not changed much, if at all.  I have a difficult time seeing how far I have come more than how much further I have left to travel.  I think not seeing the scale move for a couple months compounds this issue…at least for me anyway.  I am actively working on this, though.  Some texts I have to read for school may help: Stumbling on Happiness by Daniel Gilbert is one I am reading right now.

10. I still struggle with making good food choices.  Not every single day, but in times of great stress I still find myself considering things I should not.  I will spare you the details, but let me just admit that I had an internal debate with myself for about an hour over Junior Mints (whether or not to buy them).  I will also say that on that day in particular, no Junior Mints came home with me.  On that day.

11. Cardio is hard…with these knees…which has a lot to do with the scale not moving, I am sure.  It should get easier once this Ortho-Visc “kicks in” to help alleviate some of the discomfort in my joints.

12. I need to count calories, but find it too damn annoying…and slightly depressing.  I hate counting calories.  I really do.  Aaron keeps telling me I need to (since I am not losing weight easily anymore), and I know he is right.  However, counting calories either makes me feel super fat or starving.  No happy medium.  Crazy, I know.

Well, I am sure I missed some things, but that is a general update of how things have been going, and what I am up to right now.  It is my honest intention to keep on blogging…regularly…so, hopefully I will be “seeing” you again later this week.

How have you been holding up?
-Erica

Cleanse Days 5 & 6 {check}

Sunday was my fifth day on the cleanse.  The mild headache in the early afternoon was present, and my tummy was certainly more active than normal.

Monday was my sixth day (second to last) on the cleanse.  No headache, but the tummy remained active.  In fact, Sunday and Monday I would say I made more bathroom trips than in a normal day.  Nothing too terrible or unbearable, but certainly more often.

My sleep pattern still seems to be improved.  I woke up again today around 7:30 (without an alarm) and had no trouble getting out of bed.  I can only hope this stays even after I complete the last day of the cleanse (today).

I was not down anymore today…still 192.2.  However, I have not been in the gym since Thursday.  The gym was closed yesterday in observance of Labor Day, so that meant no Monday night Zumba for me.  I will certainly check in tomorrow morning and let you all know how my last day of cleanse went, and if I am down anymore after the final day.

-Erica

Weigh Day (week sixty)

Sixty weeks.  Sheesh.  Where has the time gone, really?  I have not posted an official weigh in since week 57 (Aug 12) – shame on me.

Today is day five of my cleanse.  Two days left, and I am hoping for another couple pounds to be gone before I am finished.  Although, I am not quite sure about that.

192.2

That is certainly nothing to be upset about.  I have finally left the 195 to 197 range I was stuck in for weeks.  I am *so* thankful for that – it was becoming *very* frustrating for me.  This brings my total lost to 122.8 in 60 weeks…an average of about two pounds a week.  Not too shabby.  Only 7.2 pounds to go until I hit GOAL!

I will check in with you all later and let you know how day five of the cleanse goes.

-Erica

Cleanse Days 3 & 4 {check}

Out of the four days I have been doing this cleanse, I would have to say yesterday I struggled the most (so far).  I felt cloudy all day.  Not miserable.  Not sick.  Not weak.  Not tired.  Just cloudy, like I could not quite focus or do anything particularly productive.  I found myself “zoning” out several times throughout the day for no good reason.  I also noted that the mild headache I had early in day one and two lasted much longer on day three.  Even after lunch I still had a headache.  Not terribly bad, but enough that it was noticable.  I did not workout yesterday either.  Partly because of the cloudy “funk,” and partly because my daughters were treated to a special evening following some trauma and drama earlier in the week.

I was not down this morning.  I was not up either.  Today has been fine.  No cloudy funk hanging over my head, and I still feel as though I am sleeping better these days.  I have been up and out of bed every single morning no later than 7:30 AM since beginning the cleanse.  That is pretty unusual for me.

I did not get a headache this morning, though.  This is the first morning I did not experience a mild headache at all since beginning the cleanse.  Maybe that means some of those toxins are gone?

I have felt slightly more bloated throughout today, though.  The tummy is definitely active, but not painful or emergent.  Maybe tomorrow will prove more “exciting” in that way?  We shall see.

Overall (at this point), I would say this has been far less “intense” than I originally expected.  That, of course, is just fine by me…and I still have three more days to go anyway.

-Erica

Cleanse Day 2 {check}

Well, day two went off without a hitch!  The mild headache went away by lunchtime, and I felt great throughout the rest of the day.

I worked with Aaron last night, and then I did an hour of Zumba.  My energy level was fine even through 90+ minutes of pretty intense exercise.  I did sweat like *crazy* again, so I really do believe that is the cleanse/detox at work.  This time, though, I made sure to carry a paper towel with me so I could clean myself off as I sweat (instead of letting it stain my neck).

A lot of people who do cleanses often complain about the nausea and numerous trips to the bathroom.  I have not experienced either of those things just yet.  My cousin, Maggie, thinks it may be because my body probably has fewer toxins than those who suffer horribly from those things during a detox.  Maybe she is right, or maybe it is just the luck of the draw?

Today (day three) is going well so far.  I am already sweating a little (not a lot, just enough to make me barely start to glisten) and it is not really that hot today.  So, maybe today is the day things will start to get a little more intense for me.  We shall see.

I was down again this morning, though!

192.2

That is *so* exciting, I must admit.  My original goal (set months and months ago) is to hit 185, and now I am getting so close to that!  My hope is to hit 185 by my daughter’s birthday party (on October 6th), so we will see how that goes.

-Erica

Cleanse Day 1 {Check}

Day one of my 7-day cleanse is complete.  I learned last night hotter water makes the Acacia fiber *much* more tolerable.  I mean *hot* water, like you would use for tea.

I did Zumba last night for one hour.  Maybe it was just me, but I feel like I sweat *much* more than normal.  I mean *a lot* more than normal.  I sweat so much, in fact, that my entire neck was dyed yellow (my hair is yellow right now), which never happens.  Luckily it just wiped off…for the most part.  I did feel great, though.  Even after I was finished with Zumba I still felt as though I had a great deal of energy.

This morning I woke up without an alarm at 7:30.  That *never* happens.  I feel like I slept better than normal.  There might be a chance this is just psychosomatic, but I do feel quite great.  I have done the first part of my cleanse for today, which has made me develop a slight headache again (same as yesterday).  Although it is nothing intolerable by any means.

The scale showed no movement today…in either direction.  So, I am neither happy or sad about that.  No change is just that…no change.  We shall see for tomorrow.

-Erica

I Should Be Fired…

…of course no one “hired” me to do this, though.  I have been horrible lately.  I seem to have a lot of personal drama getting in the way of things, my blogging especially.  Here is an update, though:

My weight has been remaining pretty steady over the last couple weeks.  Up a pound one day and down 1.2 the next.  Then back up 1.4 the next and down 1.2 after that.  Frustrating.  This morning I finally have seen a lower number!

194.0

This is the lowest number I have seen on the scale, so thank everything holy for that one!  I needed some happy news in my life, really.  I also began a 7-day cleanse today.  I bought the Renew Life Total Body Rapid Cleanse.  The first thing I have to say is the Acacia Fiber tastes *horrible* – and that is no exaggeration!  I had a *very* hard time getting that down (and keeping it there), and I am really not looking forward to doing it again this evening.

I have never done any kind of cleanse before, so I am anxious to see how things go for me.  I have already developed a very mild headache and my tummy is definitely feeling a little more active.  My goal is to share with you guys how I am doing day-by-day with the cleanse (especially for those of you who have never tried one either).  The product claims say that you could lose between 5 and 20 pounds if you do the cleanse the right way (IE follow all directions, drink plenty of water, exercise, and eat well).  I would certainly be happy with even just a few pounds, though.  So, we shall see.

I will get back into the swing of things starting this Sunday, too.  So, a weigh day will be coming.

How have you all been holding up while I have been MIA?

-Erica

It’s A Process…Here’s Some Progress

Facial comparison – May 2011 to August 2012

So, I have been taking pictures today.  I try to take progress pictures at least every other month (probably should have done monthly, but oh well).  Of course, I am late (nearly a month late at this point).  At least I am getting to them now, though.

I still hate taking pictures of myself.  I still think I look strange in photographs…and that I probably just should not be in them.  This is something I really have to work on.  Not that I want to be one of those folks who takes pictures of themselves every day, but I would love to be alright with my picture being taken.  Maybe someday, right?

I busted out the pants today…

Side Comparison – November 2011 to August 2012

I can definitely see some changes taking place even between May and August.  That makes me feel good since the numbers are not always working in my favor…at least this proves other things are still happening (such as building muscle which is replacing some of that fat).  This helps me feel better about losing only 14 pounds in those nearly three months.  Ick.

Here is something interesting…

I am almost half the gal I used to be…so close.

Once I dipped below the 200-pound-mark, I knew I was officially thinner than I had ever been as an adult.  However, rummaging through my basement proved something else to me:

My senior pictures – age 17

I am actually thinner than I was in high school!  Those are two of my senior picture proofs…look how puffy my poor face is!  I honestly cannot believe it.  I did not realize I was already *that* big in high school.  Wish I could have the kind of confidence I had back then…since I know I now look *so* much better.  Ironic, isn’t it?

Do you take progress pictures?  If so, how often do you take them?

-Erica

Weigh Day (week fifty-seven)

This week has been a strange one.  In some ways I am feeling stressed beyond belief, and in others I am finally feeling relaxed.  Odd, right?

The strep is clearing up nicely…after I took a couple days off the gym (and, of course, the antibiotics are helping).  Thursday my bestie (Leslie) stole me away for an overnight trip in a fancy hotel.  That gave me some much needed refreshing relaxation…which I desperately needed.

The biggest stressor for the week is something I have had serious internal struggles over.  I have even contemplated whether or not I should blog about it.  In the interest of not censoring, and of helping others overcome obstacles related to weight loss/health, I have decided I will blog about it:

I have been a member of Fitworks since last August.  I also began training at that time.  My original trainer was Don…then Vanessa…and then Ebony.  All of them seemed nice enough.  When Ebony left I went to Dorsey (manager) and requested someone he thought would be around for a while so I could actually build a relationship with someone.  That is when he gave me Denise.  I loved her from the moment we met.  She was energetic, sincere, and ambitious.  She was excited to help me reach my weight loss goals, which made me even more excited.  Over the last 10 months Denise has gone above and beyond for me (many times over again).  I owe a great deal of my success to her efforts and passion.  Aside from that, though, I have also come to love her as a person…outside of my professional relationship with her.  She really is amazing in many ways.

This is when things get tough.  Obviously my weight is not coming off like it did this time last year.  Every pound is so hard to lose anymore…and the weight is just creeping.  Although I knew logically this was going to happen, I find I am growing frustrated.  So, Dorsey and I were talking about it and he suggested considering training more than once per week…and maybe even seeing what I could learn from another trainer.  The problem is not that the other trainers are not good, or that I do not trust them.  The problem is that Denise is my trainer.  Period.  I felt like even considering another trainer was some sort of ultimate betrayal.  Dorsey assured me, though, that it is “no big deal.”  Despite my initial apprehension, I agreed to start working with Aaron as well.

Aaron is a trainer I have worked with before (and I know I have mentioned him here previously).  So, I already knew he was super brilliant and a fabulous trainer.  He was excited to work with me one-on-one, though…and brought a whole crap-load of information to the table.  He suggested the IF (mentioned previously) and a few other things to get things moving.  He put together a pretty intense schedule for me (which I wish I could have started without being sick), too.  Despite only working out four days this week (two lifting, two cardio), I lost 1.6 pounds since last weigh in.  Excellent!

195.2

I must admit I am excited to learn new things from Aaron, but I still feel pretty crappy about the arrangement.  I certainly intend to keep training with Denise as well, but I have to figure that one out as she switched and reduced her training days at Fitworks this week.

As a side update…the studying continues for my personal training certification.  I have read through 13 chapters (out of 30) so far.  I am taking my time, though, really absorbing and learning the information.  I hope to have everything finished by the end of September, but we shall see.  If it takes me longer to *truly* know the information, it takes me longer.  The whole program is quite expensive, so I really do not want to have to pay for a re-test because I rushed.

Another side update…Grumpy’s Coffee Mug Challenge is chugging along…and I am not doing well – still.  Some of those people have dropped an insane amount of weight already.  Good for them.  Bad for me.  Oh well, though, we have until October…and even if I do not win, I will still be losing.  Every pound off is a small victory right here at the home front, right?

How was your week?  Anything stressful or amazing going on?

-Erica