This week has been a strange one. In some ways I am feeling stressed beyond belief, and in others I am finally feeling relaxed. Odd, right?
The strep is clearing up nicely…after I took a couple days off the gym (and, of course, the antibiotics are helping). Thursday my bestie (Leslie) stole me away for an overnight trip in a fancy hotel. That gave me some much needed refreshing relaxation…which I desperately needed.
The biggest stressor for the week is something I have had serious internal struggles over. I have even contemplated whether or not I should blog about it. In the interest of not censoring, and of helping others overcome obstacles related to weight loss/health, I have decided I will blog about it:
I have been a member of Fitworks since last August. I also began training at that time. My original trainer was Don…then Vanessa…and then Ebony. All of them seemed nice enough. When Ebony left I went to Dorsey (manager) and requested someone he thought would be around for a while so I could actually build a relationship with someone. That is when he gave me Denise. I loved her from the moment we met. She was energetic, sincere, and ambitious. She was excited to help me reach my weight loss goals, which made me even more excited. Over the last 10 months Denise has gone above and beyond for me (many times over again). I owe a great deal of my success to her efforts and passion. Aside from that, though, I have also come to love her as a person…outside of my professional relationship with her. She really is amazing in many ways.
This is when things get tough. Obviously my weight is not coming off like it did this time last year. Every pound is so hard to lose anymore…and the weight is just creeping. Although I knew logically this was going to happen, I find I am growing frustrated. So, Dorsey and I were talking about it and he suggested considering training more than once per week…and maybe even seeing what I could learn from another trainer. The problem is not that the other trainers are not good, or that I do not trust them. The problem is that Denise is my trainer. Period. I felt like even considering another trainer was some sort of ultimate betrayal. Dorsey assured me, though, that it is “no big deal.” Despite my initial apprehension, I agreed to start working with Aaron as well.
Aaron is a trainer I have worked with before (and I know I have mentioned him here previously). So, I already knew he was super brilliant and a fabulous trainer. He was excited to work with me one-on-one, though…and brought a whole crap-load of information to the table. He suggested the IF (mentioned previously) and a few other things to get things moving. He put together a pretty intense schedule for me (which I wish I could have started without being sick), too. Despite only working out four days this week (two lifting, two cardio), I lost 1.6 pounds since last weigh in. Excellent!
I must admit I am excited to learn new things from Aaron, but I still feel pretty crappy about the arrangement. I certainly intend to keep training with Denise as well, but I have to figure that one out as she switched and reduced her training days at Fitworks this week.
As a side update…the studying continues for my personal training certification. I have read through 13 chapters (out of 30) so far. I am taking my time, though, really absorbing and learning the information. I hope to have everything finished by the end of September, but we shall see. If it takes me longer to *truly* know the information, it takes me longer. The whole program is quite expensive, so I really do not want to have to pay for a re-test because I rushed.
Another side update…Grumpy’s Coffee Mug Challenge is chugging along…and I am not doing well – still. Some of those people have dropped an insane amount of weight already. Good for them. Bad for me. Oh well, though, we have until October…and even if I do not win, I will still be losing. Every pound off is a small victory right here at the home front, right?
How was your week? Anything stressful or amazing going on?